For my midterm in my film photography class, the theme was self-portraits with a focus on our identity. The project didn't have to be portraits of ourselves, but rather portraits of people or photographs that defined our identity. YAY! I thought to myself. This will be part two of my ongoing Identity series. (The original: The Identity Project). Instead of exploring vulnerability like I did in my first project, I wanted to focus on the power of support this time around.
Like I tend to do with most of my projects, I wanted this one to be emotional. I wanted to create a narrative focusing on the power of support and feeling hopeful again. In addition to the photographs, I wanted the project to be a multimedia project including handwritten original poems to emphasize the emotions at play. Since my class is a black and white film class, I had no other choice but to work with black and white photographs. But what better way to evoke emotion, am I right?
Because this project is about identity, I centered this concept around the struggles I am currently facing - my living situation, accepting that I will be a Year 6 student, social anxiety, battling my commitment to school all the while wanting to drop out, and lastly, self-doubt. I wanted this project to be raw and real. To emphasize that, I included the two most influential people in my life currently: my boyfriend, Sean & my roommate, Sarah. I took their photographs, every detail in each photograph depicting something personally symbolic to me. Through my poems, I hope you are able to figure out what each photo represents. (If not, give me a holler, and I can explain EVERYTHING!)
You Made Them Fly Again:
I'll give you one little hint on where to start with this. Bottom to top. Can you try and guess why?
I know it hasn't been easy
But your patience never grew thin
You continued to stand by my side
While the flames in my eyes continued to dim
One by one, connecting the dots
When will the next one arrive?
The bottom or the top, where will it be?
How will I survive?
You show me strength
Outside and within
Little by little and bit by bit
The light is crawling back in
My eyes trail the ground
Purpose and drive out of sight
He's instilled in my mind
My capability of flight
Sound of the soul dancing, huh?
You’ve been hiding far too long
When will I hear you laugh again?
How long will this go on?
Strife against the one in the mirror
How come you lost sight of her?
Blessings of the mutually supported
Sharpened the perception that was once a blur
Tender hearts we hold
Convincing each other
We’re worth more than gold
It doesn’t last forever
This pain will subside
If only my head
And my heart would comply
Coincidences, them two
I tried to not need anyone
Determined to fly with my own wings
It’s about time some change begun
When hands of the soft hearts
Insisted their backing
Outstretched the wings that had fallen
My strength no longer lacking